C'est Bon!

Johnny Depp or shall I say Bon Bon!

Even in drag Depp has still got it

Ohhh and this is a clip from his movie Before Night Falls

FiN!!

Officially finished my self portrait!!!!!!

I am so happy I finally finished something :)

I give credit to my friend from Port Prep class, after looking at her work on facebook it totally inspired me to work.

I am almost done my landscape too! It was something I started before school ended, and it fits perfectly for my AP summer work. Although I started it before I knew about the summer work, I did it all at home. I hardly worked on it until school ended. So it was technically for next year.

Now that I am done that, I think I will start on my still life.

I only have a contour outline of a shoe. It looks good, but definitly need more work.

My cousin just got her doctor's degree!!! She has worked so hard and I am so happy for her. We are all having dinner on Saturday night at Lai Lai Brothers... Ehhhh...

That guy who works there, that I was so digging, will probably be there. I hope he won't recognize me. I mean he has a ton of guests he won't remember some girl who can in once. And I can hardly remember his face so I doubt he'll remember mine.

And I am a new woman, after reading He's Just Not that into Me I have a new found confindence and realization about dating.

He just wasn't that into me since he didn't ask me out, ask for my number, or even make small talk with me. It's stupid that I am kind of nervous for it, I have no reason to even think about it. I just keep thinking of signs and "what could be" blah blah...

Anyways, I am thinking of drawing a portrait for her! It should be fun, I have just the right paper for it. I do want to do it big but I don't have enough time to do it big.

So since she got her Doctor's Degree and my other cousin is going to Penn State, I feel like a nobody. I can't get a decent SAT score. The only thing I am good at is art, and I will end up becoming a broke artist on the street. It stupid that I even think that, I feel that it's all my parents pushing this on me. All they know about art is... Ummm let me think... oh yeah nothing!

They think the only thing you can do is make it as a pro artist or be broke painting on the

streets :(

So sad, they know so little.

A Little Blue

I was feeling a little down... (and hungry) then I went on facebook and checked some comments I got on my artwork and it just brightened my evening :)

Thank goodness for my friends.

I should update some of my artwork photos.

And I should definitly finish my self portrait, which I just can't seem to get myself to do!

Uhhhhh I swear I have ADHD lol. I just can't focus.

All By Myself

I bought my drawing paper, well technically it is watercolor paper but I love the tooth and I work best on this type of paper, at Michaels all by myself. I had my dad stay in the car :)

I hate being alone, I don't know why. I always feel so nervous and scared. But it was nice.

My paper is huge!! It's bigger than my drawing clip board LMAO.

I have an idea of what I want my still life to be but I have to create this vison now!

Metropolitan Pavilion, Aug. 4th I'm there!

Guess what I just found out?

Sex and the City 2 is having a casting call for extras on August 4th!!!!!!!

I am beyond excited about it. But I know that I won't be in it, I don't have the time or the money to get to New York. And I doubt any of my friends would go with me on this journey. They said they were looking for SAG and Non SAG extras to be the party goers, gays and lesbians, models and etc. I have no idea what SAG means. I don't think I would qualify as an SAG :(

How hot? Uhhh just beautiful

Addict!

I am a full Desperate Housewives addict. So in LOVE with the show, and I just can't get enough of it. It's somewhat like a soap but with less bad acting and more comedy. I started watching this one summery day after Will & Grace ended they're one hour presentation on Lifetime TV and Desperate Housewives aired right after it. I never really thought anything of it, it was just a show that I've heard of and kinda knew about it. Then I started watching and... WOW! It got me hooked!! I couldn't wait for the next episode. I started during the fourth season, even though I didn't know the whole story I still got into it like I had been watching since the pilot. I love the cast, Gabrielle Solis (Eva Longoria) and Edie Britt (Nicollette Sheridan) are the hottest characters!

I love Susan Mayer (Teri Hatcher), Bree Hodge (Marcia Cross), Lynette Scavo (Felicity Huffman), Edie Britt (Nicollette Sheridan), and of course Gabrielle Solis (Eva Longoria).

Omg... Just found out that Edie got offed the show :'(

I can't believe it, she was one of my favorite characters

I don't care how Bitchy and Caniving this girl was I still loved her character

She was so different than the rest of the cast and just what the show needed

And now she is gone

Gia Carangi

Beautiful Gia Carangi

Angelina Jolie as Gia in her 1998 movie where she played the beautiful and but tragic Gia Carangi

Born and raised in Philly, she was tough and strong.

At the age of 17 she was discovered and found into the modeling world.

Ummm... Wow! Tim Curry looks strangely hot. I am some how very attracted to him in this drag look. I love his lips, the dark blood red stained lipstick, very sexy. I'm watching The Rocky Horror Picture Show on Fuse. My first time watching, I've heard about this movie but never knew what it was about. I always thought it was just some scary movie. But was I off. It's a musical! Lmao, it doesn't even look like its from 1975, it would fit in this era. Or maybe is it because we are going back in time with the styles?

Ohh Susan Surandon was in it too!

Eric Bana or Orlando Bloom?

Ohhh my... hello gorgeous!!

"I think I've just cum" Lmao (quote from The Wedding Date)

So this is a scene from the movie Troy with Eric Bana, Orlando Bloom, and Brad Pitt. The room Eric is in looks just like the room I had my almost sex dream with Orlando Bloom. It's so crazy, I was just searching for Eric Bana pictures and I saw this. I kept wondering why this looked so familar and then it clicked. Lol, ohhhh ERIC Ahhhhhhhh

More like ohhhhhh ORLANDO ohh oh uhhh yeahhhhhhhh

since that's the one who was in my dream

Hunger or a craving?

I really want cheese curls lol. I don't know if this is a craving or if I am really hungry. I do feel hungry but I don't want anything else besides cheese curls. Which is very bad. Stupid junk food, I know I shouldn't eat it but I want it so badly... :(

Hahahha how cute? God I want them, and cannolies :P

Ahhhh I've never had one but they look soooooo yummie. I'm drooling already lol.

I have that devil and angel on my shoulders. I'm hungry, they're only 130 calories but then it's night time and I will regret this later on.

:(

I hate being confused and being hungry and craving badddd food...

New Hair

New hair, new attitude. The cut was inspired by Ashlee Simpson as you can see.

It was my first time getting my hair cut in Chinatown and also my first time getting it cut by a guy. It turned out wonderful, I am so in love with it! Ohhh it was also my first blow out by a hairstylist :)

Pretty awesome if I say so myself.

KVD

Gorgeous Kat Von D

Chris Pine's Favorite Spongebob is...

Omfg!! He is always the first person, and I keep missing him :(

Chris rapping :D

The funniest game show ever, with the cutest guys ever!

TV Shows Update

Just watched Gimme Sugar and the Truck Stop event was pulled. Char got upset, and I totally understand why. She worked hard for this and they just ended it. Things were finally coming together but I guess they didn't have enough faith in her. I can't wait for the new episode.

Drop Dead Diva was on yesterday, it is officially my new favorite show! It's just brilliant. I love Jane/Deb, the actress is great. Jane was trying to lose weight, but she realized this is who she is. And she needs to accept herself and not change because others won't accept her. It kind of made me think about myself and how I'm trying to lose weight. But am I doing it for the right reasons? Just because less than half the U.S. population is thin doesn't mean I have to be.

Concert Love

Warped Tour tomorrow/today. Lol, I'm excited. But I don't know any of the bands at all. I hate the line-up. The only band I know is 3oh!3... Sad but oh well.

I'm watching Sex and the City :D

My favorite show ever lol.

Anna Anna

Oh Anna, wait Marilyn? Haha it's Anna Nicole Smith, the one the only but posing as Marilyn in her nude spread. Anna was so beautiful and had this wonderful fun personality. Such ashame...

Thinspiration... :/

LMFAO!! Ewww... That thin gross looking model has the nastiest look on her face. She looks like a grumpy old man. Why do we aspire to look like that? Ok so who am I to judge people and looks. I, nor anyone else, has any right to judge. But society has it soooooooo wrong. No on wants to look like a walking skeleton, but the media and trends show how wonderful it is to look like death. And so we think "Oh, since the famous people like skinny than that's beauty", we forget ourselves. We have become brainwashed into the world of "skinny" that we forgot one of the most beautiful women, Marilyn Monroe, was curvy and beautiful. Every woman wanted to be her and every man wanted to be with her. She was no size 0 and she wasn't a size 26 either.

To Be Fat Like Me

Kaley Cuoco plays this girl who dresses up in a fat suit for a movie documentary in this lifetime movie To Be Fat Like Me. She tries to discover why people make fun and judge people by looks. At first she thinks her personality will make people like her, but soon realizes people don't care how nice she is they just see her fatness. Because that's how people are. It's wrong and stupid, but deep down they're the one's insecure. It's sad, but true. She learns more than how people treat fat people, she learns about herself. And her "friends", how they really are.

Things I now think...

Deep down my mother thinks I deserve the way people treat me.

-When I was younger and people would tease me about my weight, she'd say well you are fat. But then come up with some stupid comeback.

People make fun of fat people because they are scared that one day they'll end up fat.

I don't think I've accepted the fact I am fat more so than can't do anything about it. Well I can lose weight, which I am doing right now. I am on a no food diet lol. Well almost, I drink fake slim fast and eat veggies and fruits. Not even that much veggie and fruits, just when I feel like I am about to fait. It's not the healthiest way I guess but it works. I just can eat or I'll bloat up and break the scale again. I'm just worried how I shall eat on my cruise... Finally I think I feel the way my friend feels. The one who has an eating disorder, food is a battle we face everyday. And it's hard to be healthy or annorexic when everyone around us eats all this junk.

Depressed

So I am PMSing, feeling a little bloated, and my back hurts. Not a happy combination of feelings. On top of that I feel very emotional. Oh and I'm back to 200lbs... :/

I am also really tired. I feel kind of poopy to say the least. But I am inspired to draw Megan Fox :D

I started this drawing a while ago and never really worked on it, since I've been busy on my painting, but now I feel like finishing it.

Under 200lbs :D

Oh emmm geeee :)

This is 0ne of the happiest days in my life <3

I am finally under 200lbs. I weighed myself in the middle of watching Drop Dead Diva and I think I am 198lbs, hopefully. I don't care if I am 199lbs as long as I am under 200lbs. I started off at 205lbs about two days ago. I have been working out and not eating much at all. I drink my slim fast knockoffs from Costco, and I eat veggies and fruits. I haven't touched a french fry in about 1 week, I haven't had any junk food, including snacks and bad drinks. I am more proud of myself than ever. Earlier, about Sunday, I put up little sticky notes on the fridge and snack closet telling myself to not eat bad things and pick healthier stuff and it's working. I eat ice instead of ice cream, I eat carrots instead of dipping lol. And as for the snack closet I hardly even go in there, unless I am just looking at the chips and doritos that I strangley don't miss that much anymore. Although my stomach growls more often, it's a price to pay to lose weight. I couldn't be happier to hear it growl and I am getting use to it.

Drop Dead Diva

Wow, I just watched the pilot episode (1st) of Drop Dead Diva and it's freaking amazing!!!!! I give it five stars, all the characters are great. And Jane (played by Brooke Elliot) is so wonderful, so not what I expected from the show when I saw the previews. I thought it would just be a corny show about some bimbo, but it's so not. I'm so thankful for that. I cried too, when Jane is describing the stages of grief in the end and she's looking at her old boyfriend. She thinks of all the moments they've had together and how they can't be together anymore. It seems though he is kind of into her, I hope he is. That would just be so amazing to see happen. I'm really pulling for them, but IDK if that's even in the script lol.

We'll see on the next episode which airs Sunday at 9pm on Lifetime :D

Did I mention Margaret Cho is in it?

She plays Jane's assistant

Strange, I'm Tired.

I had a dream my friend texted me say she say TCG and her ex-lover. Lol, it was so random, and felt so real but I'm pretty sure it was just a dream. Anyways she calms to have saw someone who looked like TCG while she was waiting to take her senior pictures.

I am for once tired!! It's only midnight, I usually stay up til 2am. But I think I will hit the sack early tonight. I just have to remove my makeup and shower... I don't feel like doing either of those things but I know if I don't remove my makeup I'll break out and I should shower for sanitary reasons. And my nails have finally gotten trimmed so I kind of want to put nail polish on :D maybe I'll wait til tomorrow.

While watching TV I stumbled upon E! True Hollywood Story Rock Star Wives, I really want to be a rock star wife. Well I did at the beginning of the show, but then I slowly realized how tiring and unreliable life that would be. And scary too, all those girls wanting to be with your man and hoping he doesn't get too wasted... Wayyyyy tooo crazy for my taste. Maybe I'll just be a groupie and sleep with everyone in the band. That should be fun, I guess.

Alrighty, so shower maybe movie then night?

Typical Guys and Their Typical Ways

So it's 1:37am, I definitly should be sleeping or asleep for the last 3 hours lol. That was a joke, goodness I will never get back to normal sleeping hours.

I stayed up and watched photoshop youtube videos and I saw this one called "Virtual Weightloss" and you can basicly make someone thin on photoshop!! Pretty cool and awesome, I should definily do that with myself. I started reading the comments and it was all about how guys were stupid and only cared about looks... Hmmm SO TRUE!!! Wow, when in hell will I ever find "that one" or just someone who doesnt care about how big your boobs are and how thin you are? I'm not looking for Mr. 6 Pack abs I work out every other hour, I just want someone decent and that has the same things in commen with me. That wont think of me as "just a friend". Even teachers (TCG) care about looks, god I thought they've grown up and got over that, but I guess guys will be guys. For instince the teacher I adored thinks Megan Fox is super gorgeous and wants to bang her, what a typical guy. Truth is I wanna bang her too. Well I guess more so want to be her and bang other people.

I'm still waiting... ♥

Starving Myself Thin to be Megan (JK)

I am starving!! All I had today were wee bit of noodles, tofu/green peppers, 2 slim fast drinks, 1 banana, and 3 cups of water. I worked out for either 30 or 40mins. I am so close to finishing my painting, and I started reading The Curious Incident of the Dog in the Nighttime!! Go me, I think I've gotten over the cravings and such. IDK what I am going to eat tomorrow, I have my senior portraits... Not excited. I shall eat an egg sandwich, I think? Uhhh I don't like food, and I never know what is right to eat.

I was searching youtube and I found some Megan Fox interviews with Jimmy Kimmel and such. So I started watching and she's pretty cool, not very gitty and stupid. Its just kind of annoying because every single guy in the whole world thinks she's this super sex goddess of the universe. And god I'd hate to be her BFF I don't think I could take it, I'd probably get so jealous I'd poison her lol. Jk, I'm not that mean. She is crazy gorgeous and down to earth which is always good. I learned that she likes comics and use to want to be a comic book artist, and she can draw!! Makes me even more envious...

Hot, right?

Cake Boss<3

Hot Ass Cake Boss

This kid is sooooooo fine :P

I wanna do him so badly... Maybe not the best picture but watch him in Cake Boss and you'll see how hot he is.

Joe Faugno on Cake Boss. (Photo: TLC)

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If I ever see this sexy ass man walking down the street, I swear, I will jump him XD

Autobots!

I just watched Transformers :D

I love love love this movie, it's so different and exciting. Very action packed and just plain awesome! I prefer the second one better, it had more comedy and action. No wait I lied, I think it has more action and the first one had more comedy? Or they're equaly comedical lol IDK.

I really like Megan Fox's character, she's different from all the other "girl" characters out there. Mikaela Banes has a past, dysfunctional family, and isn't a spoiled rich girl. She's knows her way around a car and isn't afraid to get dirty. These are kind of "bad boy" qualities, but in a hot girl which makes it hot. In the beginning you don't know about her except for the fact that she dates jocks and knows cars. But later on as the story developes you get to go into her character a little deeper.

One thing that really bothers me about her is her thumbs, I know it really weird and ridiculous but they're stubby and not so hot looking. Maybe if she got tips they'd look cute, but otherwise... icky.

The most infamous picture

1st Strapless Bra

O to strapless bras... I bought my first strapless bra today!! Yes I know its shocking, how have I lived without one? Simple, I don't wear halter tops lol. And I have really huge boobs (at least I think I do... unless DD's aren't big enough) so those wee itty bitty halters would have been horrid. But I bought one because I have senior pictures next week and I realized that we have to wear drapes so I would need a strapless bra. It's quite comfy, I would say and doesn't fall down as much as I thought it would. I did buy it in a cup smaller so it would be snug ;) and I'm glad I did because it fits in this one really cute top that none of my other bras could fit into.

Not much cleavage, but still is great and comfy. And it doesn't hurt my sunburn

This is the strapless bra I wanted to get but couldn't find in my size. A little nip and tuck here and there would help but, I guess not.

LA iNK <3

The season premier of LA iNK was last night!! Whoo :)

It was so good, this really fugly Aubry girl got hired by Kat's brother. She's kind of annoying and is trying to hit on Kat's bro, even though he has a girlfriend. She's young but has all these wrinkles around her face.

Kat looks like a beautiful inked up Barbie

Aubry seems like the typical stupid blond, but we'll see how she really is as the season continues Thursday nights at 9 on TLC.

Ocean City

Beach with my bestie :)

So much fun, I went with her and her mom. Then her mom's friends met us there. I met her little cousin Alison, she's the cuttest thing ever! I am so burnt and hurt right now. My back is pink and red. But I am a lot tanner lol.

The Tattooed Woman

Are they real or fake?

They kind of look like someone drew them on, but idk...

Im on my way

I am half way finished my gorgeous painting!! "Yay me" lol, I love it. Every time I paint I feel myself getting better, learning from the mistakes I've made in the last painting and bringing more to the table. I think I'm done painting for today, I've been painting since 4, so a total of 4 1/2 hours! Whooo!! My back kinda hurts too :/

I've been in kind of a bad mood today, I felt depressed earlier and was just unhappy. My so called annorexic friend was bitchy enough to tell me her dad called me fat. LMFAO, like he has any room to talk? Wow, Mr. I weigh 450lbs!! It just bothers me that I was actually in a good mood and feeling good about myself that something like that has to happen. It brings me down and makes me feel not worthy.

Whatever... Bitch much?

Ruby Gettinger+Chris Pine=?

Very upsetting dream, very upsetting...

I was with my friends Olaf, and some others I can't remember, we were getting fries with Ruby Gettinger lol. And I think we passed Chris Pine, but no freaking out or raping him. Then I was with my mom and she got this horrible, tiny, gross, apartment. And we didn't have any furniture, she wanted us to stay there over night! I was oh hell no, this is nasty!! And begged to go back home which we did. While I was home I searched online and I found out Chris Pine and Ruby got married!! I was in shock, and started crying. I was so sad, I mean Ruby's awesome but bitch don't touch my man!

Even though I was upset, it gave me hope that if she could find love so could I.

God I wish Chris Pine was into big girls :)

Ohhh Chris <3

Dog the Bounty Hunter

I was hesitantly working out on my stationary bike today. While flipping through the channels I saw Dog the Bounty Hunter and Beth, Dog's wife, has recently lost weight and is looking gorgeous. She gave me such a confidence booster and made me want to workout. She has the same body type as me and we both have similar taste (which is hoochie and cute, oh and we both LOVE shoes). Beth and I both have heavier tops, which include huge breasts and a tummy but no booty or thick legs. And now that she's lost weight she looks great, her boobs are still huge but she looks more Pamala Anderson than a soccer mom. The way she looks gives me hope for the future me. I'm so happy to have someone I can look up to that is so similar to me.