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I had this dream last night where my parents and I were on the bus on our way to the airport to go to London/Cruise. And all of a sudden a group of people took over the bus. They demanded all jewelry to be taken off and given to them, but nobody really cared. I snuck down in my seat so they couldn't see me txting. I remember txting about my bus being attacked and for people to help me, but I'm not sure if I was twitting it. Although I remember txting the Nevada police (from CSI Las Vegas) about needing help, and what was going on. They responded back saying please tell a police station closer to you. It was strange that I was txting the police and that I was txting to Nevada police. I don't remember where I was... Either Italy or Pa? Lol,

I had a dream on Thursday night where I was being shot at. I was at this empty movie theatre with this other girl and we were being shot at by this ghost like girl. She was wearing a white dress and apparently she had a twin (wearing the same thing) but we didn't know that. I felt like I was in Rush Hour, the movie, because we were dodging bullets.

Racist Redneck Duche bag :)

I want to file a discrimination law suit against my mothers manager. His stupid dick ass fuck face shit for brains demoted her from full time to part time because some white bitch wanted to become a full time worker and they only allow 5 people. Four out of the five were white and my mother was the only Asian. She has worked there for 5 years and the bitch that wanted full time has worked only 2 years. My mother has worked at the store longer than most of the people combined. And she gets the can? WHAT THE FUCK IS WRONG WITH MANAGERS? JUST BECAUSE SHE'S ASIAN?? DISCRIMINATION!!! FUCKERS... I guess I can't blame the stupid heffa for taking her spot because all she wanted was more money since her husband left her. She can't afford anything and works two jobs. If we filed a law suit, this could easily be won. First of all my mother has worked their longer than most and definitely longer than the heffa that stole her position. My mother is obviously the better worker because she doesn't have a second job to worry about and she's always at work and on time. The store doesn't hire people as full time if their non Caucasian or mentally disabled. 

Tweet

Ohh the lovely twitter. I'm kind of newly addicted to it thanks to my friends. 

We went to Burger King today, I haven't been there in ages. But I love it because it's the only place that has a veggie burger <3>

Idk if your suppose to use them or collect them. I'm using mine. How many times in your life do you get to say your drinking out of Chris Pine? It's super cute and the picture of Cptn Kirk looks just like TCG.

Speaking of TCG, this morning these two hefas were waiting for him outside his classroom. He comes to open his door and their like "Your favorite students are here" Uhhh I could beat the shit out of them. Stupid whores!! Get the fuck off my man. They make me so pissed off... Stupid bitches

Movies in School

My english class has just finished reading Of Men and Mice, we've been watching the movie and its such a depressing movie/book. I just want to hug Lennie, he's so sweet and adorable but he sad and doesn't understand things. And Gary Sinise plays George, I saw him in Forrest Gump... Ahhh hottie :)

TiLF

My love, oh my darling :)

I was walking around c-pod this morning with my friend. She took off her flip flops and was walking around barefoot, she wanted me to do it with her. So while we were walking past TCG's classroom I saw him sitting at his computer and I stopped right in front of his door to take off my sandals. And weird thing was, he turned toward the door and just stared at me while I was taking off my shoes. Omg, it was so awkward but I loved it. Getting his attention is the main goal in my life. My friend told me about this phrase TiLF, Teacher I'd Like to Fuck (from the phrase MiLF). I have so many TiLF's this year. It's kinda funny. I guess I've never realized how many hot teachers are in my school.

Fat Girls Can Be Loved... Lets hope :)

Ah the infamous fat girls. No love shall over come that body. I was on my search for skinny girls when I came across a picture of Jeremy Pivens in bed with a curvy girl. My heart melted, my eyes teared. That's the love I'm looking for, thats what I yearn for. Although this only happens in movies, it doesn't mean it won't happen to me eventually after all my years of E-Harmony. It's just terribly hard at my age to meet a decent guy who is attracted to me in a physical way. Guys in their teens and throughout their early 20's tend to go for the more physical and sexual relationships. They want what's gonna turn them on and what/who will fuck them faster.

Throughout this love obsession I have with TCG, I keep thinking he would never even give me a second look. He's quite young so his hormones are still high and he probably only dates beautiful thin women. He would find me repulsive. It reminds me of Good Luck Chuck, the big black woman that works for him comes to his house one night to try and get laid by him. He's very reluctant, and she say's "just imagine someone beautiful" and he's like "I'll imagine you". Then he kisses her... it's so beautiful. And I always give out a tear at that moment. I think that's when I started looking at Dane Cook in a different light. Even though it's just a movie it was still beautiful and I wish that something like that would happen to me.

Birthday Sex

It's my baby's birthday :)

TCG officially 24, and 7 years older than me. He's only been legally drinking for 3 years, what a young boy.

"Ohh, she's only 17

Wind and wind and wound up over everything

Bloody Mary breakfast busting up the street

Brothers frightened whens a baby gonna sleep

Hidden ships that sails away

It's a culminating story and a goodbye session..."

Hopeless Romantic

Today I went over my friends house to draw. We ended up going to this near by pizza shop that she always goes to. And she got some food but I didn't because there's usually nothing there I can eat since I'm a vegetarian. The guy who took her order was like aren't you getting anything? She's like no she's a vegetarian, he's like oh well I can make veggie hoagies etc. I'm like no it's ok, I already ate. So later while were drawing we go up to the counter to ask one of the guys if they can sharpen our pencil. And the same guy who took her order comes over and gives me a strawberry. He's like do you want it? I'm like "umm sure, thanks". Then we walk back to our seats, and I'm like "Wow, I just got fed a strawberry..." It was so weird but cute. Unfortunately this didn't happen on a date or anything that could be use full. It was just random. 

Peace with mom

My mom and I went to the mall today, the turnout was wonderful. I got some cute tops to go with my cute leggings. And she finally got me the peace necklace and stud earrings. We went to Macy's this time and to look for my jewelry. The necklace I got was so much better than the one I had originally wanted, it was bigger and had little stones going around the peace sign. Just perfect, except for the price. It cost $110, but it was on sale for 50% and we had a 20% coupon so my mom caved and got it for me. She said it was a reward for my art work. Then we found these really cute studs so she got me those too. 

Weird Man...

So I had this dream, it wasn't bad but it was quite weird. I always have weird dreams though, so I guess for me it's not that weird. I was in college and I was dating my calculus professor. Not only was I dating him but so was this other girl, who I think was the same girl in my current math class but with brown hair, and we both knew about each other. And we were ok with it. The professor was Vinny Jones, how odd. We would both make out with him and it was all good. I don't even know how Vinny got in my dream, I haven't seen any of his movies in so long...

(He's my secret crush... I guess, there's just something about him that I admire and find hot)

There  was more to my dream but I can't really remember, I just know bits and pieces. I remember I watching this animal movie at some really small theater with Joe and his parents. And my parents were there too. Also something about Keerthi, either she was there too or we were doing something before it. Then my neighbors were having a party and I was trying to go over. My mind was all over the place last night.

Friday!!

I finished my Chem test and I presented my psyc project :)

I am on my way to completing everything. A lot of stress has been taken off me. 

I watched The Uninvited today, I was suprised about the ending. It was actually really good and it was a Japanese remake of this movie called The Two Sisters. You'd think this was a typical movie were the good people kill the bad. Although it did end with the daughter killing her dads girlfriend, the daughter was crazy. She went into a mental institution... I liked it. 

Then I watched Star Trek, with the oh so gorgeous Chris Pine, but unfortunitly I feel asleep so I have to go back and watch it again. 

ART SHOW <3

I went to the Art Show tonight with my parents and Erika. My parents aren't supportive of my work at all. My dad didn't say a single thing to me about my stuff. I had to hear it from my mom that my dad liked my fruit painting. I don't understand why it's so hard for him to express him emotions to me. He never congradulates me for anything, just looks at my art work and says nothing. 

Creepy jogger... Ehhh. So their's this jogger I see when I'm riding the bus to school in the morning. I use to kind of stare at him, I don't know why but I thought it was fun to get a reaction from him. Which I ended up getting, sort of. He started staring back at me and I got really creeped out. It's ok for me to stare because I'm young and stupid. I still have innocence, but he's way old and knows better. I guess I instigated it, but whatever not the point. So I thought I saw him working as a janitor after school this one day but I wasn't sure if it was him. I let it go, but today I saw him walk past my psyc class when I was working on the project. And then when I was at the art show I saw him too!!! Ahhh, I think he was looking at me. And he know's it's me from the morning... I feel so weird. And I'm trying to act like nothing happened, which nothing did happen. But it's just so creepy and complicated. Why did I ever have to look at him? I don't even know what I was trying to do by it. I guess it was fun at the time, but now I don't look out the bus when we get to that area. In fear that I'll see him, and it's like he knows. He always looks at out bus too. It is my fault for starting this weird looking thing. 

Fin!!

Ahhh... My stress is relieved! My partner and I finally finished the project. We literally did it in two days. Our topic, ironicly, was on stress.

Presentation tomorrow, not ready. I'm scared but hopefully we'll talk for 10 mins.

New news*

TCG's bday isn't until next Sunday, that's why his myspace still says 23. I wonder what he'll do for it. Oh my baby is growing up. My friend told me he stared at her breasts yesterday... How odd and creepy. 

Some times I think I would be so much better off with out some guy on my mind, but I realize it's what keeps me saine. It's what keeps me on my toes and gives me excitment in my life. 

Ohh She's Only 17, Wind and wind...

TCG makes me sad... I was just looking at a picture of Chris Pine and I kept thinking about TCG. I almost feel like crying. I always want what I can't have. And he's definitely someone off limits. Today when I saw him in class he just looked past me, I think, and it makes me sad that I can't even get him to talk to me. I can't get his attention, no matter how hard I try. Not matter if I try or not he still doesn't notice me. 

Even the time he 

sat next to me, he never looked at me. Or talked to me (he might have said hi, but I didn't say anything back). Why can't he be the one to say I smelled nice? Gahhh, life and love are so complicated... 

I guess it's the hunt that I enjoy, if I really had him I'd be kind of

 creepy... He's so much older and a teacher for that matter. I would probably report him. It's more a fantasy, I like the idea in my mind. Just not for real.

Art Show No Show

My parents won't go to the Art Show tonight. I'm bummed. I was really hoping we could go tonight, my stupid mom worked late... Ughhh. Nothing ever goes my way. Stupid life. I want to cry, they said we would go tomorrow. This always happens to me... I wasn't even sure if they'd care about the show. All my hard work is there. But I don't think they understand or even care a rats ass. Stupid people... No one in my family cares about it. Just because I don't want to go for pre-med. I'm so depressed, my hands are shaking as I am typing. I knew this would happen. 

They yelled at me for not tellin them ahead of time. I didn't even know until today at school...

I don't want to go tomorrow........... Ahhhhh!!!!!

I wanted to go tonight. stupid fuckers

I'm pissed... I always end up being the one pissed

I hate them, they don't ever care about anything I do that I'm actually good at. 

Seriously Stressed

I have missed a couple days of school due to field trips and feeling sick. Now I have so much to make up... Gosh!! I have to take a psychology test and quiz, of which I have 6 days to make up. I still have to finish my chemistry test that I started to take today, hard as anything. Ohmygod I have to go and look over my stuff majorly. And on top of all this I have a psychology project due on Friday, a long with a presentation, and my partner and I just started today. I guess we do better under pressure, but I hate stress. Not to mention I have a chemistry cumulative review quiz on Friday and if I don't do good on it I won't be able to exempt the final. Also the art show is tonight, I have all my work in there and I would really like to go. 

I got a gold sticker on my still life fruit oil painting :) I was so happy when I saw it today. This is my first gold sticker and it just means the world to me. I am so thrilled, and I hope my parents really take me there because I would really like for them to see the hard work I put into everything this year. I'm kind of scared to ask them about going because I'm scared they'll reject me. And then I'll be really upset...

So creepy thing happened to me today, when I went into my chem room this morning to take my test my male teacher was walking past me to get me my stuff and he said "You smell nice today". How odd? Are teachers allowed to say that? I was like "Ummm... Thanks?" It was such a weird in counter. I was kind of shocked. 

Anyways... the every so gorgeous TCG came into my class once again. He was saying how hot it was, blah blah... and I think I overheard a student ask how his birthday was. Oh snap!! And he said it was on Sunday, and it was good. Oh freakin shit, my baby boo birthday? I'm pretty sure he's 23 or was 23 so now he's 24. I just check his myspace and it still says he's 23. So I'm not sure, unless his birthday is this Sunday? Idk but uhhh my honey bunnie <3>

I got my art show T-shirt today, I'm quite sad that I won't be working there. But I couldn't risk another day of being out from class... I already have too much shit to make up. 

Goddd, so everyone who takes Algebra 2 had to take this bullshit test this morning. So hard not to mention. I was sitting next to this kid in my class and we kept swapping answers. It was kind of funny, no one knew what they were doing. And this kid behind me kept yelling out the most ridiculous things and he wouldn't get in trouble. But when this girl was talking just a little bit a teacher had to go up to her and tell her to be quite. It was so stupid. I think the teacher was retarded or blind or death. Idk but she was a bitch and oh so stupid. Everyone kept talking and then the teachers would yell... blah blah bull shit. 

Running, Jogging

Whoa! I just went running with my friend and were extra tired... We haven't gone running in the longest time.

A good start to my diet plan :)

But now I'm ultra sore... Uhh. I don't feel like doing anything but laying in bed. 

Gahh... I'm craving pizza even though I had it for lunch at Eastern University

Timothy Olyphant look alike

I'm on the bus, on my way to Eastern University. And there's this really cute teacher chaperoning. He looks like Timothy Olyphant from the side. Ahhh so sexy. 

So I wonder if my hormones will take over, will I jump the Timothy Olyphant look alike? I wish I had my laptop so I could add a pic of him.

(Pick just added)

OMG he looked so much like him <3

Diet Plan

My friend and I want to start a diet plan. We want to be summer ready. 

Trade in our unhealthy junk food for healthy fresh foods. No more fries, no more grease filled food. We will eat veggies, fruits, and drink water. 

Yummie right?

These actually look really good...

God now I'm craving an apple

Healthy H20 

Freaky Friday

Ahhh, I'm watching Freaky Friday and txting my friend, who is also watching the movie, at the same time. I brings back so many memories. And I really like the band music, although I can't seem to get the actual artist. Chad Michael Murry is so hot in this. And Lindsey Lohan looks so pretty. I liked her so much back then. Now she's just odd. 

JK I found the song, its called Take Me Away by Christina Vidal. The actress who plays the singer is the actual artist of the song. 

(healing power of this movie is amazing)

OMG So pretty... 

Rebel Rocker Chick

OMFG Bipolar!!

She's such a bitch!! I can't stand her fucking bipolar life. I'm so angry and frustrated, I want to cut and cry. I want to scream and hit things. I'm just so annoyed with everything. 

So I'm downstairs looking at the hotel we just booked for the summer. And she come up to me and says "Let's go shopping over the long weekend, I've got coupons for Macy's we can look for a top to go with the leggings". I'm like "Oh great now I've got to wait a whole week to wear them". The bitch is like "You're off Tuesday, I get off at 4 we can go then" I was like "Umm, maybe. I'm not sure"

Fuck, Fuck, Fuck... I'm so so angry. I feel like a little kid, when they just want to kick and scream. That's what I want to do at the moment but I can't because I'd seem like a fool. And she'd just bicker at me even more. I fucking don't understand her bipolar bitchness atitude. WTF!!!! 

Disaster at the mall

I am really pissed... 

I went to the mall with my mother, and things were going ok. She was being the biggest pain, she wouldn't let me get anything. I don't know why I still shop with her. We went to H&M and I saw this cute top I wanted to try on. At first she was like ok sure, then 5 seconds later she freaks out and says I can't try it on blah blah. I was like fine whatever I want to leave and she's like ok fine you can try it on, I didn't even want it anymore after all this bickering. But she insisted I try it on, I was so frustrated I started crying in the dressing room. I didn't like the shirt on but I told her I wanted it. So were getting ready to pay and I pretty pissed off, she starts asking me if I have change and I say no automatically. Now she gets pissed and walks off. I stay in line and pay for it myself. She's all pissy about nothing. And pretends to return these leggings we bought earlier. Then were driving back and I'm like what is wrong with you, blah blah. I tell her I didn't even like the shirt so she drives back and returns it. Bitchassness!!! I seriously hate her at this moment. I kept hoping a car would kill me. Then she'd feel like a total bitch and regret everything. 

I'm so angry but not as much. I came home and ate some ice cream so I guess that helped... 

Kings Of Leon <3

So I forgot to mention, I'm a huge Kings of Leon fan (well starting to be). And they're going to perform at the 2009 MTV Movie Awards :) Yay, I'm super pumped. I haven't seen them perform live yet, so I hope it's good. And another thing I forgot to mention is that TCG loves KOL too. Isn't that funny? We finally have something in common that we could actually talk about. Gahhh, I'm so infauted with him... <3>

-Please let me have another dream about him, hopefully something more one on one. That'd be nice.

-I'm crossing my fingers...

Dream a little dream...

Alice in Wonderland, what an interesting story. Odd but interesting.

I had a dream in Alice theme. Some how I ended up being in this game/maze, where there were these rooms and in each room I was suppose to uncover something. And the more I uncovered the faster I'd win and get out. It wasn't anything creepy or scary, but the maze was really small; child size almost. I was only wearing a black bra and panties. I just kept crawling around searching in the rooms. The weird thing was the hallway was child size but the rooms weren't. So once I had gotten into the room I could stand up and go look for whatever I was searching for.

Before this Alice in Wonderland dream, I had a dream involving my hot Chris Rine look alike chem teacher. Although he wasn't a big part of the dream it was the first time I've dreamt of him. It was some how snowing outside and a group of people (unsure who, but apparently my friends) were waiting by the car. We were all going somewhere and packing bags. I was walking out my front door, with heels on of course, and I end up falling/slipping my way to the car.

(Rekindling Carrie Bradshaw's shoe obsession)

Unfortunately for me I still have to walk back to the front door to retrieve my bags. So I ask TCG (hot chem teach) if he could walk me to get my stuff. And I have my arm linked with his, it was cute. He was really sweet, and uhhh... so gorgeous.

Night with my friends

So me and my girlfriends decided to hang out at the mall last night. Our motive? Meet some guys. We did technically met some people, but none that we'd be interested in.  Funny we ended up getting a call from one of the guys later on in the night. They wanted to pick us up and do "some stuff". We said ok, pick us up at the park near the bridge. Neither of us expected them to actually go there, but 10 minutes later we get a call... "Liars, liars. Your all liars, we went to Windelstray and Rose Twig Park. You guys weren't there." My friend and I just died laughing. Then they add "No dick for you guys". Oh wow, did they really think we were that easy? Seriously? Like we would have sex with them? Not like that. 

That made me think. Do all guys want are late night booty calls? Is that all they think were capable of?  The one guy was cute though, but that doesn't mean I would fuck him. 

Teacher Scandal

Today I found out about a teacher of mine who "allegedly" had relations with another student. She was fired, and I don't even know if anything had actually happened with her and the student. I doubt she would do anything with any students. She was so sweet and nice. And always had the cutest shoes... She's also very religious. I hope nothing happened and that she'll sue the school. But I can only cross my fingers and hope. 

My school had a ton of scandals, last year a teacher was arrested for having a sexual relationship with a student. And before that scandal we had students who stole about 60 school laptops. Crazy kids and teachers...

Grey's Part deux.

Oh my goodness, I finally finished watching  the 2 hour season finale of Grey's Anatomy, and wow I cried my eyes out when I found out it was George who got dragged by the bus. Then Izzie went unconscious... Just tears streaming down my face.

Earlier in the day I had overheard about what happened to George, I freaked out. I didn't want to know anything that happened because I was planning on watching it when I got home. But my friend was freaking out because she didn't have anyone to talk to about it so I let her spill the beans and tell me the ending. I almost cried when she said George and Izzie might die...  The funny this was both my art teacher and my psychology teacher watch Grey's. I didn't think the show was popular among adults  but I guess it is. 

And apparently TR Knight and Katherine Heigl have been wanting to leave the show for a while, that's quite depressing. I really like the both.

New Blog

Ahhh... My new found home to blog.

I'm sick at home with god knows what (probably the Swine Flu, OMG!). My head feels like its about to explode... but I some how manage to do my homework. Yes I have homework, I'm still in high school. And yes I'm a confused teen who isn't sure about life, but knows she wants to live it to the fullest. 

I have 22 days until my SAT test (June 6...) and for the first time in months I've looked at my SAT book. I will probably do horrible, as I did with my last test, and take it again in October. 

Last night I looked up the actor from Star Trek, Chris Pine, who has a striking resemblance to this chemistry teacher I'm madly in love with.

My future husband... Yum :) 

This photo resembles my chem teacher the most. It's mostly the eyes.

So this chem teacher, who should remain anonymous for now, has been my passion for the past couple of months. Although he knows little of me, I'm sure he has some suspicions of my lust for him. I have been walking around his classroom every morning with my friends just so I may get a glance of his beautiful blue eyes... <3

I obviously know no relationship would ever occur between us, it's nice to fancy us together some times. He's only 23 so the age difference isn't too bad. And maybe when I get out of college and become an art teacher at this school he'll still be here. Then we'd fall madly in love with each other and get married and have beautiful children.

Well, a girl can dream can't she?

2 Hour Season Finale

Uggg... It hurts to think that Grey's Anatomy won't be on for some months. It's the 2 hours season finale, which I probably won't finish watching til tomorrow. 

I've been on this hunger craze for the past hour. I've been hungry for the whole day but I haven't had the appetite to eat